Taking it to a New Level

 

We’re depending on God;
    He’s everything we need.
What’s more, our hearts brim with joy
since we’ve taken for our own His holy name.
Love us, God, with all you’ve got—
that’s what we’re depending on.

(Psalm 33:20-22 The Message)

 

 

This week, I started out with a prayer asking God to "Save me from haste and confusion..."

 

After that prayer, confusion kept coming across my path. Both the actual word, and at times a sense of confusion about life. So, I looked up the word in the dictionary to ease my distress. The word "confuse" means "to bewilder, to mix up or identify wrongly or to make muddled or unclear."

 

Confusion comes to my heart when I do not understand God's will or direction, and especially when circumstances don't make sense. 

 

I have been asking hard questions this week:

 

Why do two of my friends have to face the fear and uncertainty of health issues?

 

Why does another friend struggle with a sense of condemnation, when she is making a huge difference in the lives of many?

 

Why do I still sit around wondering what I should be doing with my life, when I have a recent degree in English, a self-published book and people who want me to share my writing, speaking and creative gifts with them, as well as plenty of time?

 

On Tuesday, I met with a group of spiritual leaders, where we were discussing spiritual growth and the catalysts that lead to a deeper relationship with Christ. Between my questions and the good dialogue at that meeting, I discovered something.

 

God wants to take us to a new level. He inviting us to bring our confusion, our fears, our doubts, our crises, our agendas, our gifts, our strengths, our weaknesses to . . .

 

a new level of dependence.

 

Dependence on Him. Dependence on His love and grace and strength.

 

Dependence. Will we accept His invitation?